You Never Knew

You never knew who I was

You never knew what I was feeling

You never knew the pain I had

You never knew how I tried to survive

You never knew what I cared about

You never knew that I once loved

You never knew that I needed someone

You never knew how much I was hurt

You never knew what went on in my head

You never knew what I thought

You never knew how many lies I told

You never knew the secrets that I kept

You never knew who my friends were

You never knew their names

You never knew I had no friends

You never knew I was alone

You never knew the torture I lived through

You never knew I suffered

You never knew I was deeply troubled

You never knew I was suicidal

You never knew that I felt so worthless

You never knew why I was so quiet

You never knew what I drempt at night

You never knew about my fears.

You never knew why I wrote poems

You never knew what I wrote them about

You never knew what I wished for

You never knew what I wanted

You never knew why I laughed

You never knew why I cried

You never knew how everyone hurt me

You never knew why everything mattered

You never knew my favorite color

You never knew my favorite flower

You never knew my favorite people

You never knew my favorite things

You never knew why I asked so many questions

You never knew that I worried all the time

You never knew that I cared so much

You never knew that I was so sensitive

You never knew how smart I was

You never knew how much I knew

You never knew what I could do

You never knew if I could do it

You never knew what I did

You never knew why I did it

You never knew my reasons for anything

You never knew me at all.

Blizzard Skies
April 2-4, 1985